unfortunelty...im still loving you

today, i've been visiting my campus. seen on my marching band. they get hard exercise to a competion at jakarta on february 19-20...
when i look at them, there was something happen, suddenly time was turn back to one year ago...
still remember about him
with his snare...with his stick..and of course his smell
he produce more sweat in the end of exercise...i still remember his smell
so comfort...so warm...
and i think i still miss him
still miss him
and i want turn back time,
felt that feeling again, the feeling that i cant describe on....feeling so comfort when i sit beside him,
when he sit beside me after exercise, his smell so good...i really miss that part

dear you
i think i still want you...
unfortunetly...i still loving you even though u have somebody now


then my mind back on...
and when i see my marching band, their still focus on their exercise, i realize...
that someone that i've been looking for wern't there...
he cant continue the exercise
he cant go to the jakarta for the competion...


so i look my selft in the mirror...
damn! why i have to dress like this!wearing eyeliner, blush on and high heels...
i feel so stupid...
he has somebody, so why i have to act like this....


dear you...
unfortunetly i still loving you

baru vs lama

Banyak yg berubah dalam hidup beberapa bulan terakhir...
well, ya i've a new job ( finally!!!)
bertarung dengan waktu, jam kerja yg tdk menentu, waktu utk bermain yg kurang( sangat menyedihkan ternyata) dan tentunya fisik yg sering kupaksa hingga bberapa kali aku jatuh sakit. dan sakit terakhir bikin aku sedikit ternganga..man! aku mengidap vertigo..haishhhh...


( terus di depan komputer adalah kerjaanku sekarang...menyedihkan)

mmm pada akhirnya aku bisa menyisihkan uangku utk ibu trcinta, sekedar memberikan uang jajan utk adik semata wayang dan berfoya2 yg kiranya uang itu tiba2 raib entah kemana tanpa kadang aku lupa kemana perginya jejak demi jejak rupiahku
aku sangat tidak peduli...yg penting aku bahagia dan bisa melupakan betapa stressnya aku bekerja di tempatku sekarang, tanpa adanya 'refreshing'( kecuali kalo ada mas TL yg paling ganteng se Arcde itu , paling tdk aku bisa tersenyu ngeliat betapa sempurnanya dia dan betapa agungnya Tuhan yg telah menciptakan sosok seindah dia..pssst bocoran, siang ini aku memberanikan diri ke cubnya utk permasalah cust paskabayar yg aku bnr2 tdak mengerti...dan dia tampak sangat menawan..damn Tuhan, seandainya dia bisa jadi jodohku...)


( bustomi ganteng...masnya tl itu juga..hubungannya apa?
hahhaha)


hemmm....tapi ada satu yg masih kurang
aku masih saja seperti dulu...
sendirian
sering sekali aku berjalan sendirian, mengitari amplas atau gale sendirian, berputar menggunakan motor dengan musik dari headsetku. terkadang menginginkan ada satu orang yg bisa mendengarkan keluh kesahku ttg customer BB yg sok kaya, yg hobinya marah2 tanpa arah..ingin rasanya ada org yg bisa melihaku menangis tanpa aku harus meringkuk sendirian diatas kasur..menangis mengadu pada sang maha pencipta...
aku ingin ada orang yg bisa melihatku secara nyata...

do your thing-Nsync

"Do Your Thing"

Waiting, for your peice of the pie
to drop out of the sky (gotta go get it)
Hesitating, for somebody else
to run and pass you by (never get your time)

[hook]
There ain't no excuse for losing your feet
Drowning in your defeat, on this road of life
there ain't no excuse for coming up short, the ball is in your court
so reach up and touch the sky

[chorus]
Are you doing your thing and doing it well
Are they looking at you hating singing oooohhh
Ar you doing your thing and doing it good
do your thing thing (oh), do your thing thing (oh)

(do your thing) Do Your Thing, oooohhhh (oh.......)

Keeping yourself from taking
on your perfect dream (you gotta free your mind)
And being something
somewhere that you read in a magazine (but you never let you shine)

[hook]
There ain't no excuse for losing your feet
Drowning in your defeat, on this road of life
there ain't no excuse for coming up short, the ball is in your court
so reach up and touch the sky

[chorus (x2)]
Are you doing your thing and doing it well
Are they looking at you hating singing oooohhh
Ar you doing your thing and doing it good
do your thing thing (oh), do your thing thing (oh)
(Believe can nobody do it better than you,
believe can nobody do it better than you)

Are you doing your thing, well
Are you letting your dreams, come alive
Are you doing your thing, good
Believe can nobody do it better than you,
believe can nobody do it better than you

[rap]
Gotta run, gotta break, gotta go, gotta take,
everything that I pray never did fall
Gotta hump, gotta bump, never sit on a stump,
never quit from the swell of a lump
If you really want it bad
you can't ever drag your feet to the beat of the sound of defeat
even if you got heat
Whoa
Never take your mind of the beat, so...

[hook]
There ain't no excuse for losing your feet(losing your feet)
Drowning in your defeat, on this road of life(do your thing)
there ain't no excuse for coming up short, the ball is in your court
so reach up and touch the sky (sky)

[chorus (x3)]
Are you doing your thing and doing it well
Are they looking at you hating singing oooohhh
Ar you doing your thing and doing it good
do your thing thing (oh), do your thing thing (oh)
(Believe can nobody do it better than you,
believe can nobody do it better than you)

Do your thing, do your thing, baby
Do your thing, All them looking at ya, All them looking at ya
(Believe can nobody do it better than you,
believe can nobody do it better than you)
Do your thing, ooohh
yeah....
ooohhh
yeah...
(Believe can nobody do it better than you,
believe can nobody do it better than you)
ooohhh

Do your thing
Do your thing
Do your thing
Do your thing


notes:
" Lagu ini ga begitu populer.ada di album "POP" nya Nsync. liriknya bagus n bikin semangat banget^_^. kl lagi down aku biasanya ngedengerin ini. .."